CD Update

Dear Friends,

I've been wanting to update you on my CD progress for some time now, but these last few weeks have been extremely busy.  I've been very occupied playing at several events throughout the month of September, as well as writing some string arrangements for a friend who is releasing a new album this coming December.  Most recently, I played at a conference in Northwest Calgary.  What a beautiful time of year to be in the foothills of the Rockies!  The expanses of golden leaved trees and ruddy prairie sagebrushes contrasted against the bright blue autumn sky and snow dusted mountains made for some spectacular scenery. Even driving through Calgary was almost pleasant (I never though I would hear myself saying THAT!), with the leaves falling and dancing allover 14th Street SW towards Canyon Meadows.

My keyboard was in the repair shop this last week -- yet another unforseen delay!  I picked up the piano last night, and everything looks to be fine at the moment, so I intend to start laying down tracks next week, Lord willing.  There are always delays, hurdles to jump over, and bugs to fix...but this WILL get done.

Inbetween the busyness and rushing around of the last few weeks, I have been using my spare moments to run through the pieces for my CD, writing down notes for instrumentation and arrangement.  Every time I pull out the guitar or harp and start singing through the pieces, I get very excited to see my vision come to fruition.  But, inbetween now and then, lies some very hard work! 

In my spare moments between now and the release of the full length CD next spring, I intend on releasing an EP of my favorite solo piano compositions from the last 15 years.  I believe I will entitle it "Beginnings," after one of my first publically performed works, released in 1997.  I have not yet decided if I will produce this as an online album only, through CD Baby and iTunes, or if I will do a short-run print of a limited amount of CDs as well.  I will let time and schedule dictate that.  Stay tuned! :)

Until next time,
Melissa

concept artwork for solo piano EP

And He Called Them Good

And God said, Let the waters swarm with swarms of living creatures, and let birds fly above the earth in the open firmament of heaven. And God created the great sea-monsters, and every living creature that moveth, wherewith the waters swarmed, after their kind, and every winged bird after its kind: and God saw that it was good.

Genesis 1:20-21

 
Dear Friends,
 
I've just been reminded of both the beauty of life and the mystery of death. 
 
I returned from work this afternoon to see something struggling in the grass outside my home.  As I drew closer, I found that it was a beautiful male Northern Flicker.  He looked to be very injured, as he was flapping his wings in a vain attempt to move, while his legs and feet were curled tightly underneath him as though in spasms.  I dashed inside the house to grab my garden gloves, and quickly returned, picking him up in my hands as to prevent him becoming a plaything for the mischievous neighborhood cats.  I sat on my front steps, and stroked the head of the little creature, speaking to him, trying to coax him to fight for his life so that I could continue to enjoy his beauty. 
 
This is a drama that has played out many times in my life, being that I have been a bird lover since my childhood.  Some of my fondest remembrances are of moments spent sitting in the middle of the canoe, my dad paddling, my brother and mom in front, practicing my Common Loon call; spying various Warbler species in migration during the fall; and calling the White-Throated Sparrow with my dad during the summer.  My role as a Florence Nightingale (no aviary pun intended) to these winged minstrels is but a natural extension of my innate admiration. 
 
As I sat this evening, speaking softly to the bird, I admired the thoughtfulness with which he was created.  Soft, downy, spotted feathers on his belly...almost like the tips of a a Peacock's tail.  The underside of his wings are a fluorescent orange, including the quills; something you don't really get to admire during the fleeting moments you observe birds in flight.  His beak is perfectly created to dig for ants in the copius amounts of anthills that litter the property.  Such thought; such beauty; such perfection in every detail of this bird's body.  And Adonai his creator called him "good."  And He cares for him, just as He does the less spectacular Sparrows.  He provides food for him in due season. He gives him the instincts needed to reproduce and build his nest.  I was yet again reminded of the beauty of God's creation, and the testimony of His handiwork that pours forth from it every minute of every day.
 
Simultaneous to my admiration, I watched painfully as this beautiful creature writhed, struggled and gasped, obviously unable to recover from whatever injury or illness had befallen him.  And so I prayed that his Creator would either heal him swiftly, or show him mercy and not let him suffer long.  Not moments after, I watched as the bird took his last breath. Adonai knew the exact number of his days, just as he knows mine, and yours. I am sure his feathers were numbered, just as the hairs of my head are.  He belonged to Adonai Roi, the God who sees.

- Melissa

O LORD, how manifold are Your works!
In wisdom You have made them all.
The earth is full of Your possessions—
This great and wide sea,
In which are innumerable teeming things,
Living things both small and great.

These all wait for You,
That You may give them their food in due season.
What You give them they gather in;
You open Your hand, they are filled with good.
You hide Your face, they are troubled;
You take away their breath, they die and return to their dust.

You send forth Your Spirit, they are created;
And You renew the face of the earth.
May the glory of the LORD endure forever;
May the LORD rejoice in His works.

He looks on the earth, and it trembles;
He touches the hills, and they smoke.

I will sing to the LORD as long as I live;
I will sing praise to my God while I have my being.
May my meditation be sweet to Him;
I will be glad in the LORD.

Psalm 104:24-34

A patient that survived, December 2008

Blessed Are Those...

Dear Friends,

Before I share what is on my heart this morning, first the news:

I haven't written in a little while. It always takes me a few days after a long vacation, to get back into the daily routine of life.  I also had some technical issues to sort out when I got back (broken computer) that expended a lot of my energy.  Now that all these things are taken care of, I am back to CD preparations!  I am finalizing a list of tracks to go on the CD, and will begin recording my first tracks hopefully next week. I will let the Lord make the final decision as to what goes and what stays, as there may be some new material that arises out of recording sessions that will be what HE really wants on the disc!  Most of the groundwork, which is done on my keyboard, will be laid down in my home studio. Once the foundations are there, I will be going to another studio to record vocals, guitars, and other acoustic instruments.

Now, to the heart:

My thoughts this morning as I sit with my coffee, looking out the window, are on the phrase "blessed are those who mourn." (Matthew 5:4)  This scripture is really resonating with me, as during the last couple of days in particular, my spirit seems to be in a state of mourning.  This might sound strange to you, and you might wonder "what is wrong," or "what's happened?"  That is the mysterious part.  I am not in a state of mourning for one specific event, or for something bad that has happened in my own life.  What I really believe is happening is that I am in some way experiencing the grief of the Holy Spirit, who dwells within me, and within every born again believer.

Very late last night, after I had already committed to go to bed, I decided to return to my computer and look up a song on YouTube that I had heard last year in Jerusalem for the first time.  The song is called "Revelation Song", as sung by Kari Jobe.  I listened to the song twice, and the beauty of the melody and the power of the words of the book of Revelation filled my spirit:

(Excerpts):

Worthy is the
Lamb who was slain
Holy, Holy, is He
Sing a new song, to Him who sits on
Heaven's Mercy Seat

Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord God Almighty
Who was, and is, and is to come
With all creation I sing:
Praise to the King of Kings!
You are my everything, and I will adore You…!

Clothed in rainbows, of living color
Flashes of lightning, rolls of thunder
Blessing and honor, strength and
Glory and power be
To You the Only Wise King,

Filled with wonder, Awestruck wonder
At the mention of Your Name
Jesus, Your Name is Power
Breath, and Living Water
Such a marvelous mystery

I began to weep.  And weep.  And weep.  I'm sure many of you have had the experience of the tangible presence of God suddenly filling your senses; something even deeper than that was happening.  It was as if, in one moment, I had an awareness of the utter holiness of God -- the incomprehensible majesty, power and beauty that IS Him, and that surrounds Him.  I trembled, but more than that, my spirit began to weep and interecede for the fact that this God, Yahweh, the one around whose throne is a dazzling rainbow; for whom the living creatures never stop crying "Holy, Holy" -- His name is being continually blasphemed, day in and day out, by the ones he so lovingly created.  The juxtaposition of His holiness and humanity's utter depravity was branded onto my heart.  As the book of Romans says, the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.  I believe this was what was happening last night and into this morning -- Abba was letting me experience just an incredibly small portion of HIS grief, allowing His Spirit to intercede through me through the gasps of sobs and tears that would not abate for quite some time.  I wouldn't have been able to get words out anyway, although my mind did pray.

A brief reprieve in the tears came, and I opened up my Bible to the books of Revelation, Ezekiel and Daniel, and read the visions of Yeshua.  The tears started all over again.  All I could think was, how infinitely powerful, infinitely beautiful, infinitely glorious the Son is -- and how his name is not only trampled by his enemies, but also by those supposed to be his children.  So much of what passes as Christianity in our day and age is actually apostasy.  We are living in the days where churches are removing crosses from their steeples and deleting the words "Christ, Messiah, and Jesus" out of their Bibles and liturgies.  What a slap in the face to the glorious Messiah who laid aside his majesty to be beaten, whipped and crucified for our sins.  Not only are we in an age where His name is being denied; but things too vile to write about are being incorporated into our "worship" services and programs, in complete defiance of the Torah; things that are a facsimile of the depravity of our fallen world, rather than a shadow of the glorious throneroom in which Yeshua is seated.  And so I wept.  I not only grieved for the state of God's church, but I wept for my own life and repented of any ways I might have misrepresented, blasphemed or made light of my God. 

These types of experiences are deeply personal, and I would not normally share them publicly.  The reason I do so in this instance is because I have been asking myself the question, "do we know what it means to mourn, as the body of Messiah"?  I am not talking about being artificially morose, or continually downcast.  In all of life, the joy of the Lord is to be our strength.  What I mean, is, do we live with the sense of what God's heart is truly feeling?  We often pray canned prayers like, "God, give me your heart," but do we really mean it?  I think if we would really know the fullness of God's heart, we would not survive the grief.  It seems though, that according to Messiah's words, those that are his disciples WILL live with at least some kind of a sense of mourning in their hearts:

"Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted."  Matthew 5:4

"In a little while, you will see me no more....I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices.  You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy.  A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world.  So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy."  John 17:17-22

I can only imagine how the disciples mourned when the bridegroom was taken away.  They walked with him face to face.  And yet we have been given the Spirit of adoption that cries out "Abba", even though we have not seen him as they had. The Holy Spirit is the same yesterday, today and forever.  And therefore, I cry and groan with Yeshua's modern-day talmidim (disciples), and with the Spirit, who says "Come, Lord Yeshua!  Come make an end to sin, strife, and depravity.  Come and put your enemies under your feet.  Come sanctify your Name that has been profaned among the nations.  Come rule and reign in righteousness, justice, purity and peace."

May our grief soon turn to shouts of joy.

Melissa